Graduation is around the corner which summer is almost here. I'm can't wait for this summer, but I don't have any plans and it will be the last summer that I'll get to spend with all of my friends here together. Hopefully we will be able to plan a vacation or go somewhere together, before college. Once college starts we plan on keeping in touch. I don't have a lot of close friends. Most are staying here and my only best friend is deciding is deciding to leave me, but she is going to Murray which isn't too far away.

Today is friday and most of my school work has been made up from my Washington trip. The lasts tests of the year are being taken. Prom is tomorrow and after school today I am going with one of my friends to get my nails done and run last minute errands. I'll go home tonight once this is done and unpack from my Washington trip which I have not yet done. I will also have to do chores around the house as well, which I will try and procrastinate to do. I will then watch some movies, call people, and get on the computer before going to bed.

My 11th birthday I had about 14 of my friends over and we played games at my house and I rented a limo and we rode around town in it, and went to different places. We had cake and food at my house and I had some of my friends spend the night. We stayed up all night talking and watching movies. It was a fun birthday and one of the last ones I had with my friends before I moved schools. I wouldn't categorize it as my favorite birthday, but it was one of the better ones. Most of my birthdays are memorable and were enjoyable.

This weekend should be fun because of prom. Hanging with friends, taking pictures, and having fun. It seems like it would never get here and now there isn't time left to get everything ready. I hope that the weather is good and that plans work out. I also hope that I get all of my homework done that is due this week. Just getting back from Washington has left me with a lot to do and it seems like little time to do it, not to mention as soon as I return I get sick. It never fails that whenever I have things that need to get done I get sick and am not able to get anything done. This is very frustrating and stressful, but I am better now and things are starting to get finished and turned in and after this week everything should be done for the most part and after next week everything will definetely be finished. I found my shoes for prom today and made my hair appointment which has got everything for saturday taken care of. My homework for tonight is nearly complete, but not quite so I'm going to finish the rest and go to bed.

Washington was fun, but I'm glad to be back apart from making up the work, which isn't all that bad it's just a chnage of pace from not having any work when I left and actually having work in all of my classes now that I'm back. The trip was worth it though, and I got to see a lot of cool places and I took tons of pictures. I'm still catching up on sleep from the trip, the bus ride was extremely jerky and a little to crowded to sleep on. The weather was good while we were up there and I was disappointed to find that it was raining when we returned home and it has been and will continue to rain for the rest of the week. I missed my family and friends and am glad to see them and catch up and tell them about my trip and show them pictures of everything, and I'm excited that everything is going back to its routine and that this school year is coming to a close and graduation is just around the corner.

Right now there is 4% battery remaining on my computer, but I want ot get this blog done now because if I wait to do it tonight I won't remember. Right now I shouldn't be in school on my computer doing this blog I should be outside enjoying the weather hanging out with friends. I hate being looking out the window and seeing the sun shine and being trapped in here suffocating while hearing the teachers talking thinking we are listening or paying attention when we are relaly daydreaming and thinking of all of the things that we would much rather be doing than sitting in this chair in their classroom not doing the work that they assigned for us to do. The minutes pass by and we continue to stare out the window waiting for the bell to ring so that we will be released from this place and not have to make a slight effort as if we were paying attention to anything that is going on around us. My computer has just dropped down to 3% battery and the bell is about to ring, and I will be able to go to the last period of the day and hopefully survive it so that I can enjoy the rest of the day outside of school doing whatever I want.

Spring Break is a day away and I can't wait. Although I like being at school I am excited and ready for a break. I am also ready for a week away from work and spending time with my friends and family. The temperature is warming up so that I can enjoy the outdoors. I plan on staying in Owensboro for the break, but going to bowling green the weekend before we come back to school. I'm hoping my cousins will get to come in and visit from Indiana at some point because I don't get to see them that often. When we return from Spring break the rest of the year will fly by and be over before we know it and we will be walking down the isle for graduation. This Spring Break I will also be working on some projects that are due at the end of the year for some of my classes. Although I don't have anything big planned for the break I know that I will have fun being with my family and friends and hanging out here in town.

Bucket List

1. Graduate college

2. Get married

3. Have kids

4. Own a room with a view

5. Watch the sun rise

If I could choose to be someone else for a day I would choose to be myself in the future. I would get a chance to see what lifestyle I live in and what people surround me in my everday life. I would also get a chance to learn what person I have become, and what things I have got to experience in life and then be able to go back to being myself in the present so that I can actually experience them myself. I would also like for my present self to meet my future self so that I could get advice from me in the future. As myself now I would give my past self advice such as learning to understand people and situations better and to know why rules are given for you to follow, rather than break. Understanding is something that comes with growing up. I would also say that things will happen as they are supposed to just to give them time and do what you feel is right. Making decisions is going to be a part of your life forever and you are going to have to make more important decisions as you get older. If you gave advice to yourself in the past what would it be?

Today is my sister's 15 birthday. I'm so excited we are having people over to our house and are going to hangout and watch movies. I am also a little nervous about it because I kind of just want to be by myself, but maybe everyone will hangout with her since it's her birthday and leave me alone. I rarely like being alone, but when I do I have to get away from people or end up being unintentionally mean because I'm aggravated that I can't be by myself. Whenever, I do try and go off and be by myself I usually can't because my family wants me to be with them. It's really frustrating when all you want is time to yourself and to get away from people, because I am around them all of the time, but can't. I think tonight will be a lot of fun and I am looking forward to it. I hate being in school when there are better things I could be doing with my time, especially since the it's starting to get warmer outside.

I am thankful for God and all that he has given me. He has surrounded me with people that care about me and have led me down the right path.

Dear God: I want to thank you for what you have already done. I am not going ot wait until I see result or recieve rewards; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until my financial siutation improves; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until the children are alseep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed; I am thanking you right now. I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles. I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better. I'm thanking you because Father, You haven't given up on me.

This is a poem I found that says we shouldn't wait to thank God for all that he has done for us, so I'm doing it now. We all need to make time in our lives for God, and for those that keep putting it off the right time for him is now.

Today I woke up in a great mood, which doesn't happen that often. It may be because I'm not a morning person, but last night went well and this morning the sun was shining and it wasn't freezing cold outside, plus it was Thursday, which means doughnuts. I was in study hall thinking about writing my Star Wars paper for film class and gathering my thoughts when I decided that today was to perfect to be ruined by thoughts of hard work and concentration. So instead of putting my brain to use and writing my paper I decided to better it by researching funny life quotes and adding some humor to my day. I came across a quote that said "The cost of living's going up, and the chance of livin's going down." I found this funny, but in an odd way seeing as how it's true. Many of my concerns revolve around money and having enough, but reading this makes me realize that money is something that will always be around unlike the chance to live. I also discovered a saying that reminded me of myself. It asks, "Do you have trouble making up your mind? Well, yes or no?" I'm extremely indecisive about everything, and it is something that I wish I could change about myself. Right now it seems like a lot of things have fallen into place and I look to find something that is missing, but I haven't and I hope that things continue to go well, but there is a saying, "If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something." Everyone is always telling me how slow I am, but I don't see it as being a bad thing that I like to take my time to do things. I can see someone telling me one day that I'm slower than a herd of turtles stampedingthrough peanut butter.

1. "Do not drive with sunshield in place." - on a cardboard sunshield that keeps the sun off of the dashboard

2. "May irritate eyes." - on a can of self-defense pepper spray

3. "For use by trained personnel only." - on a can of air freshener

4. "Warning: Do not climb inside bag and zip it up. Doing so will cause injury and death." - a label inside a protective bag (for fragile objects), which measures 15 cm by 15 cm by 12 cm

5. "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly." - on a child sized Superman costume

I'm so excited for summer to arrive. I feel like I will have more freedom and no worries, plus the warm weather means I will want to do more and gives me more time to do it since there is a longer supply of daylight. This year has been pretty good, both boring and exciting aspects can be accounted for. I'm excited and somewhat nervous to go to college and figure out what I want to do with my life, but I can't wait to experience it.

I went out of town this weekend. It was a lot of fun. I'm glad the weather was nice, and is starting to warm up although I hear it is going to get cold again at least it was warm for a little while. I got to get away from home for a little while which was nice, but I'm glad to be back. School is going by fast and soon it will be over with, which I'm excited about as well as nervous about only because of the uncertainties of it. I'm going to start looking for a prom dress this weekend, and I hope I'm able to find one fairly quickly for a reasonable price. I hope I enjoy it this year more than last, but dancing isn't really my thing, especially in heels.

I'm ready for spring. We have missed too many days of school because of snow and I have been at home bored out of my mind. I'm glad to be back at school and am hoping that there won't be many more cancellations due to the weather. I am also ready for warm weather and am tired of the cold. When spring gets here I will be able to play soccer and will go outside more rather than stay inside my house all of the time.

My friends and I are silly. Whenever we stay up late you can't get us to stop laughing. We aren't entirely sure what we are laughing at, but we always have tears in our eyes. I'm going to miss the friends that are leaving for college, but I'll be sure to stay in touch with Meghann who is my best friend, and the only one that happens to be leaving me. We have had countless occassions of silly moments and I'm sure we will have many more.

It's late and I'm tired, but if I don't blog now I will forget to this weekend. I'm running out of things to talk about and since I can't think straight most of these probably don't make a whole lot of sense. It's friday night and I went to work, came home, ate, and blogged, that's how big of a loser I am. It has been an interesting day. I can say that fourth period was pretty hilarious and somewhat embarrassing, topping off one  of the best days ever.

Things are running smoothly in my life right now and although my schedule is filling up things seem to be working out okay. I'm ready for warm weather to arrive soon though it has been cold for to long, and when spring arrives I can start soccer back up. I can't wait to get back on the field, but I don't want to rush senior year. I will take it one day at a time and enjoy it as much as possible.

I have been waiting for it to snow all day and it finally has. I'm so excited, but it is so cold outside, and I can barely drive without snow on the ground and am not going to take the chance of driving with it on the ground. Unfortunately I have to work tomorrow, but I have the night free so I can do what I want. This week is over, and went by fast. I've been so busy and continue to have plans for the next month and few weeks. It seems that this year will be over before I know it and I will be graduated. 

Despite having to go to school today and not being prepared it was a good day. I got a lot done and yet seemed to do nothing at the same time, if that's possible. Today seems longer than most and I'm not sure why. I had a lot of fun today and it was full of a lot of laughs. It helps balance out my week, because Wednesday was the worst day ever. I was in an awful mood for no reason and could not get out of it if my life depended on it. I'm just glad that I made it through the week and the week ended on a good note.

This weekend was the first weekend I didn't have to work on Saturday or Sunday in a long time. It was amazing, having two days to do whatever I wanted and not have any responisbilities. I got to go out to eat and hangout with friends. I went to church, and hungout with my sister the rest of the day. We went to the park and the library, where I got a new book to read since i just recently finished reading the twilight series. Although it was only two days to myself it felt like a vacation and I had fun and am glad that the pressures of work and school were not present.

There are traits we notice in everyone, some more noticeable than others. My friend Meghann has a tendency to use the word freakin in every sentence she says, and Taylor, another friend has over a thousand different facial expressions. A trait that I instantaneously associate with Courtney is her snorting that always accompanies her laugh. Molly's trait, I would consider most everyone notices is the volume at which she speaks for it is extremely loud. Everyone has certain traits that stand out to us, or maybe they are more subtle, either way all of us have habits that are repititious rather they go noticed or not.

1. Riding in a car with Meghann Anderson

2. Going somewhere you aren't supposed to be

3. Doing the Cinnamon Challenge

4. Trying to fight Dusty

5. Talking to a lot of people at one time on the computer

6. Putting people on hold

7. Eating at Cheeseburger in Paradise before soccer practice

8. Trying to drive your car home when it keeps dying

9. Running down icy steps

10. Not looking where you are walking

Possibilities....this word is full of instability and ifs. I am unsure of what the new year has in store for me, but am excited to find out. I plan on graduating high school and attending college here in town for the first year. As for detailed plans, I don't have any yet and I plan to see how things go and where I end up. I'm usually not the type of person to not have a plan, but what else are supposed to do when you don't know what you want to do with the rest of your life except plan to go to college and see where that gets you. I hope to find some of my interests while I'm there as well as make some new friends, which I'm sure I will. Sometime this year, later on, I hope to have gotten somewhere with knowing what I want to do with my life. I'm sure the new year will bring good things and bad and hopefully I can see good in the bad. I'm sure this year will be my most life changing thus far in my life, and I hope it can be said that it changed for the better.

I'd like to start by saying that I don't believe in superstitions. I don't know how they got started or why, but then again that can be said for a lot of things. There are many things of which I am unsure and many things I wish I knew more about. Superstitions, I believe to be created for enterainment purposes alone. Do I believe in bad luck and good luck? Is it the same as superstitions? I believe we create our own luck. What we get is what we have created for ourselves, it can't be blamed on myths and legends. It is true that some things are out of our control, but it is also safe to say that we do have control over most of the things that go on in our lives, and most of the opportunites in our lives we can create ourselves.

Looking and thinking back on 2009 memories flood back of good times well spent as well as bad times that try to be forgotten. However, the bad memories that are unable to be forgotten may remain for a reason, that reason being to help us learn from them. The good memories that occured throughout the year are often forgotten, despite the joy we got out of them. Often times we dwell too much on the bad things and must refocus our attention on the good things. It seems to me that sometimes the bad things leave a big impact on our life, but all that is needed is a hint of happiness to make things right again. This year has started off great, and I'm aware that it will bring things with it that won't be something I'll consider to be good, but I hope that with these things I'll see the purpose behind them.